Faith vs Certainty
Which would you choose?
Which would you choose?
We are meant to live in faith. But many of us find it hard. So we just settle for certainty.
We limit our lives so that we are certain of how things will turn out... We rarely let our true selves show outside our small circle of friends. We stop dreaming so that we are certain that we won't be disappointed. We aim for the tried and true so that we are certain that we won't miss.
But life has ways to foil our plans... Even in our tiny circle, we have friends who disappoint. We live a conventional life, and still the unexpected happens. We give up our ambition, and we still miss the mark.
This is what I did. I became a perfectionist. I was a control freak (detail-oriented I called it). And I was uncomfortable with ambiguity.
And still we never had enough money in our savings. I still got panic attacks. I frequently got overwhelmed and felt that life was too much. I was on constant high alert.
...Until I learned to let go "in faith".
To me, faith is the prayer that says "Help me! I can't do this on my own anymore." It allows me to enlist the help of the Higher Power to augment my limited abilities and perception. With it, I harness forces around me to create something new and magnificent!
It has allowed me to make big leaps like moving to France and live with no income for a year and a half.
Because of faith, my certainty has been replaced by expectation. The kind of expectation that looks forward to the gifts under the Christmas tree! An expectation that knows that whatever is there will be good, maybe even better than what was asked for!
My new go-to thought now is "The universe will use this to our advantage."
This kind of "looking forward" expectation takes practice. It took me a year of choosing to have faith, even when my heart was pounding and my brain was screaming "go back!"
So I challenge you to start practicing now. Start small and work your way up to expecting big things in your life.
An easy way to start is to say "Wouldn't it be nice if ... " (fill in the blanks)
🥰 Michelle
Love your life!